today I decided it was somehow a good idea to go through my archives and read every single thing I posted in 2011

it took me like 4 hours

and it’s weird because I feel like my blog right now is really similar to how it was at the beginning of 2011, before I began that huge descent into ‘wahhh my life has so many problems’ and feeling the need to bitch and moan about everything

I mean, it’s understandable, a lot of pretty stressful things hit me all at once but I just cannot believe I let myself mope for so long

things have improved so much. I never did get a job, but I managed to work through my driving problems (to the point where my parents pretty much trust me to drive anywhere now, and it’s really nice), and I’ve more or less straightened out the really chaotic relationships I had with people that were bothering me. and I feel like my discretion has improved, and when I do have to vent about something it’s less repetitive/self-deprecating. it’s a healthier state of mind.

so I’ve sort of come full circle, I guess? I hesitate to say ‘woo yeah feeling 100% this is great I love myself’ but I feel way more capable and in control than I have in the past year or so

or at least, more resistant to all the negativity that was plaguing me

uh this is kind of ridiculously serious and sentimental, isn’t it

I’m just gonna finish this up with this because I found it yet again

sweet life choices, 6 year old emma

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